As a frenchman, brought in a very catholic/military traditional upbringing, guilt, shame and duty are an inner part of how I behave.
It took some time (around 28 years, actually) to fully understand the ramifications of those concepts in my day-to-day life.
It includes, but is not limited to :
- Continued efforts for agreeableness in all situations, even leading to being seen as a "pushover" or passing my turn in various occasions where I could have gained way more and/or was objectively or subjectively due more ;
- Inability to enjoy time out and vacations without having guilt about it ;
- Inability to enjoy luxury and/or delicacies seen as "non-necessary" ;
- Inability to lead a non-reciprocal negotiation ;
- Work yourself-to-death-because-you-have-to mentality ;
- Constant questioning of myself in various situations.
Part of these behaviours led me to experience objectively good and/or interesting situations :
- Being seen as reliable and truthful in almost all situations ;
- Getting rid of toxic relationships only seeking to leverage my companionship for personal gain ;
- High moral ground.
However, it also is limitating in that some behaviours or tricks can easily get me off balance and lower the efficiency with which I deal with the causes I root for :
- Leveraging the "you said you would (...)" or "that is unfair" card against me is very effective ;